Sorry Neil & Andrew but it appears I’m not going to make that reunion drink anytime soon. I’m sure you’ll forgive my tardiness but I just wanted to take this opportunity to thank you both for what you taught me.
Neil you always used to say “You wont be sad for long”. I always used to think you were full of shit but I’m not too arrogant that I can’t admit you were right. Nothing lasts forever not even pain. Speaking as someone who wasted 2 decades of his life feeling miserably suicidal and sorry for himself, I am amazed at the positivity I have approached the challenges of the last year.
Andrew you were astute enough to catch me when I had my big depressive crash after my HIV diagnosis & my car was stolen with my life’s possessions inside. I was unemployed with no election to distract me. I was at possibly the lowest point of my life. I had nothing; no home, no car, no job, no clothes, no money, no health. Sharing your life experience you told me I would get through it and thrive. Considering my historical problems with medication I didn’t believe you. The day you died I bit the bullet & overcame my fear. That day I started to take my meds.
So both of you are responsible in your own way for my lateness but I’m sure you won’t mind. Behave yourselves in Valhalla with all those Norse warriors but save a flagon of mead for me.
Oh & should you bump into a women called Irene, tell her I understand. It is more important to be kind than it is to be right.
26 April 2012